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he's pitchy at times but love the rocker thing, and the raspy voice :)

i like to replace 'sad' with 'tired'.

i refuse to admit defeat, and would rather replace it with weariness, exhaustion or ennui.

jaded.

it's week 9 :)

4 more academic weeks, followed by a study week and 2 of exams and FREEDOM!

just had subcomm tea, joined TWO instead this sem.

different reasons for joining the two comms.

nevertheless, start of a new journey.

:)

we must never take our comfort zone to be a given!

and even more, you should take the initiative to shake things up a little, esp if you're getting too accustomed..

fitting right into school life, with close friends and a momentum,

i chose to restart socially by plunging head first into arrangements i'm in alone.

dear self,

you only have yourself to blame.

love, self.

may it be for the better.

if you tell yourself to let it be, it will be.

one thing out of philo and quantum is logic.

clearer perspective, analysis of problems.

i detest being irrational,

and i find it tedious to understand irrational behavior.

i hate being irrational myself.

being unable to comprehend my way out of the problems..

helplessness.

i hate that i still get that.

ohwell. human after all..

you're the only one not allowing yourself to feel.

should just give myself a small pat on the back for being able to withstand the past 9 weeks.

never thought you'd be able to go through this.

everyday. pretending to be sane.

pretending to be fine and dandy.

;）

it's a start right. one day it might become

real.

from now till then..

卑猥? 落魄? 狼狈?

there goes my command of chinese,

as well as my english.

bidding essay skills farewell..

far cry from the past?

seems like i'm past my heyday :/

or is it really the different priorities.

i sure do miss 17 year old me, sans bad hair.

where i knew where i was going..

bye.

^^